So happy you make me want to puke!!!

That's what one of my patients told me the other day. I thought holy shit I must be doing something wrong cause I think my kid and my dad would say.... I'm mostly crabby. I think things are seriously out of balance in my life! I'm joining the Y tomorrow but who knows when I will get there to work out... not tomorrow. Weewaa. Probably not Saturday or Sunday... Hopefully Monday. I wish someone would take my dogs and my dad! HA I wish I could stand up for myself without feeling guilty and just tell my dad I need him to go... I finally realized it is about me and I need this regardless of him having a job or not. To my surprise he thought if he had a job he would just stay here and my thought was he would move... I need to communicate better apparently. I want to simplify my life sooooo bad cause I feel overwhelmed all the time. But hey I've got my patients fooled I guess I'm hiding it well! LOL that is exactly what I preach to them about doing! I have gained weight, but I don't know how much cause I don't wake up in enough time to weigh cause i'm going to bed between 12 and 1am every  morning so I wake up way too late... I've stopped wearing makeup other than powder and mascara. Sorry you guys don't get the super happy always positive me... I use it all up at work!!!! weewaa