Logan

So Logan has really been jacking with me lately. He has talked about moving to his dads more than once.. He has concluded that it is not in his best interest, but he does miss his dad... and then he talks about living with him again... Ugh he is killing. Oh it gets better... so one day I was amazed at how fast he reads. FYI - I'm a super slow reader.. it has to do with the ADHD I think. LOL So I told Logan he must get his fast reading from his dad because his dad is a REALLY fast reader. Well hell that made his day. He got something good from his dad. Well that was weeks ago, but in all of his missing daddy stuff lately he has been bringing it up. He has asked me what other nice things I can say about his dad... OMG are you kidding me... well I love my kids more than anything so I suck it up and come up with some nice things like... he loves you very much, he's not a bad person.. pathetic right. I told him his dad has issues but that I don't want to get into that because it was adult stuff and he just isn't old enough I did explain PTSD in child terms. I found myself asking why the heck did I have to have children with addicts? Logan has been listening to country music a lot lately and he looks so sad like he wishes he could just hug his dad. Then I have all these mixed emotions... I'm angry and my heart hurts for Logan.
Side note: My ADHD inattentive type has been acting up bad. I had hoped that exercising could help with stress management and managing the ADHD; however, it doesn't seem to be helping much. If anything things have become worse since I started exercising, althought I don't think exercising is why. These past few days have been really FUCKING bad. I've been almost in tears for like 2 days. My mind is so jumbled. I am forgetting things and finding it so frustrating I called my doctor to see about getting back on Ritalin... lol oh the irony... I just realized I have no real idea when my appointment is... HA I hope I put it in my phone or wrote it down. Oh well, perhaps I will call Dr. Forlano's office again to double check, if I can remember. After all they wanted to schedule me an annual pap with Dr. Novack instead of an annual physical with Dr. Forlano.
Hey I think I only hit 2 topics... that's amazing! Good night