I love you guys!!!

Thanks lady's for all of your support. Please tell me more about this place you pay $50 to find a home for your dogs cause I will totally do it. The dad thing... I just need to grow some balls and do it. LOL my mom is sooooooo ready to kick him out for me. The guy things... I'm in mommy mode I have no time for anything more in my life... my kids are it. It just sucks when Logan is always wanting a man around and then I feel like SHIT I don't the last one sucked a bit more than your dad! HA. I get that single mom guilt thing easy then I harp on myself because I couldn't give either of my kids a home with their mom and dad and wonder what is wrong with me? I struggle with seeing couples... I need to disconnect from fb i think because I find myself tortureing myself by looking up people I knew growing up and seeing their happy little families... I get some relief when I find those that are like me with a couple of kids from a couple of different people... ANYWAYS enough about that... I utilized my new Y membership for the first time tonight and attended a Zumba class... I was glad my friend Val from work was there to push me along cause I almost walked out without doing anything... when did I get to be so insecure? I seriously pulled into the parking lot and had to talk myself into going in because I saw people coming and going and I know the big muscular guy at the desk and he use to smile at me when he worked at River Crest and I got all uncomfortable and stuff... LOL I think he was just being nice. NO NOT interested in him... He is wayyyyy too young! Anyway, Valerie talked me into staying and I think I might actually go back.  I survived the entire hour of Zumba. I had a hard time with my feet on the Latin dance parts but the hip hop pounding part (LOL I don't know a better way to describe it) was really fun I got so into when the song was over I thought I was going to puke... That's when you know you have worked hard! I'm gonna hurt tomorrow! Hopefully I will get a good nights sleep tonight... Sweet dreams... <3