Some ties are hard to break...

Others aren't!!!

Here is an email between me and... that's right, Jim:

Re: ‏

6:07 PM

To Jim Perez

From:	Lacy Slaughter (lacyrslaughter@hotmail.com)
Sent:	Thu 2/23/12 6:07 PM
To:	Jim Perez (jim_zeppy@yahoo.com)

Stop contacting me

Sent from my iPhone

On Feb 23, 2012, at 9:37 AM, "Jim Perez" <jim_zeppy@yahoo.com> wrote:

For what it's worth.. U were right.. About my need for therapy and that I was to much to handle ... The Jim today doesn't like the Jim I was to u .. Just a few short months I can see the difference in my tht process.. .. If u still have the same number .... I hope u hear me for who i am today and not the pain i may have caused.... I wish I was mature enuff to have handled our situation differently... Cause I did want u for MY forever ... And I know this because .. I can't seem to get u out of my head ... I think of our first kiss in my garage ... Over and over again .. ..I will never forgive myself ...cause my relationship with Logan was awesome!! And I lost him in the process ... If u ever find it in ur heart to take a look .. My number will be the same ... I hope ur well I miss u both so very much .... Jim

Zeppy

For the record... At the point in time I ended it I felt NO pain... In fact, I kind of laughed at his shear stupidity. For those who may not know or don't remember he called me a niggar whore and told me to fuck off and die... lol it still makes me laugh! I finally woke up and realized I was in a horribly abusive relationship and I was way fucking better than that!. I'm still pissed at myself for putting up with all that I did for that stupid glimmer of hope that I could be done with the whole dating thing and have my happily ever after... The truth is Jim was too fucking short for my taste. I really am that shallow and I had convinced myself that was something bad... um I have reconsidered that and decided that I'm done with dating people I'm not really attracted to; i.e. Sim, Shea, Jim... Let's face it, Chris was really cute, but maybe just a little to clean cut for my taste. So the only way of contacting me he has left is to come by my house... I have no problems with calling the cops for any reason I deem necessary. I have blocked him on facebook and on my phone which is why he thinks I have a different number or something ...
I could totally analyze this email... it's really funny how clear things are when there are no emotions involved. You know all that stuff I have read (i.e. Women Who Love Too Much by Robin Norwood) makes perfect sense... I'm at a loss as to why I allowed myself to buy into all those things I know are RED FLAGS... Stupid emotions!!! I have concluded I have to get over this stupid HOPELESS Romantic crap I have been stricken with my Whole life becaues it is HOPELESS!
PS Seeing La in her beautiful wigs makes me want to have long hair or wigs myself! HA